It’s wonderful to see how someone whom you dote on standing up well and nice; facing the world once again. With nothing much different from a busy person – running out of time, fatigue, ‘indulgence’ but different from many others is the paint of smile on that face i’ve grew used to it. But this ‘new’ face is quite a reappearance after one year and more; though it is never entirely the same anymore.
There are so many things I perceived myself, based on things ive heard..thought that I understood. But no, maybe nobody is as high up there as you thought Only to be laughing at your own perceptions at the end of the day. Hahas. ~
A conversation, trying to fight for the petite endurance level in me, last night strucked me… I really do have a relatively high level of patience, support and tolerance over the year. Though the fact is it has ran out pretty much over the very last few months. I can only convince myself based on ‘who’s worst?’ Nevertheless, I’m always thankful for being borned this way somehow. There’s so many others who just need a talk, a listening ear, a pat on the shoulders and a hug just to know that they are not alone. As a psy-major, I know how important social support are and I dont wanna abandon people who I love. Sometimes, just a talk can change so much things for the better.
Now the waves are no longer going against us yet there are other things to be worked on. When will things be perfect again? I just hope i wont fail to live up my own expectations of myself. I’m getting kinda confused these days. Confused by…the unconscious forces tugging inside that super ironic mind. Or should i say conscious forces? Coz, im always aware of the emotions I have; sorta know the reasons why. But i just cant stop them from coming. Sometimes i wonder if I’m alil insane. Or am i just overly stressed over the various things to stick my mind on??
Regardless of all, I thank my lucky stars. Thanks for whats bestowed to me all these years. I’m always on the better continuum. Maybe that’s why I yearn for…hmm some sorta perfection despite knowing that perfection never existed before.
Statue by Lil Eddie
In the middle of the night and you’re fast asleep, my love.
Stay awake looking at your beauty,
telling myself I’m the luckiest man alive.
Cause so many times I was certain you were gonna walk out of my life.
Why you take such a hold of me girl,
When I’m still trying to get my act right.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I don’t see, what I have to offer.
I should’ve been a [season], guess you could see I had potential.
Do you know you’re my miracle?
I’m like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love collapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when I’m lost for words,
Everytime i disappoint you,
It’s just cause I can’t believe,
That you’re so beautiful. (Stuck like a statue)
Don’t wanna lose you, no. (Stuck like a statue)
Ask myself why are you even with me,
After all the shit I put you through,
Why did you make it hard
It’s like you’re living and i make you??
But baby your love is so warm it makes my shield melt down (down),
And everytime we’re both at war,
You make me come around.
What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I don’t see, what I have to offer for.
I should’ve been a [season],guess you could see I had potential.
Do you know you’re my miracle?
I’m like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love collapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when I’m lost for words,
Everytime i disappoint you,
It’s just cause I can’t believe,
That you’re so beautiful. (Stuck like a statue)
Don’t wanna lose you, no. (Stuck like a statue)
And you’re so beautiful. (Stuck like a statue)
Don’t wanna lose you, never. (Stuck like a statue)
Every single day of my life I thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause there’s no explanation,can’t solve the equation
It’s like you love me more than I love myself.
I’m like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love collapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when I’m lost for words,
everytime i disappoint you ,
It’s just cause I can’t believe,
That you’re so beautiful. (You are the reason,)
Stuck like a statue. (The reason for living,)
Don’t wanna lose you, no. (The reason for breathing)
Stuck like a statue. (You’re so beautiful)
And you’re so beautiful. (And I want you to feel it)
Stuck like a statue. (Cause so bad I’m needing)
Don’t wanna lose you, no. (You’re the reason for breathing)
Stuck like a statue. (You’re so beautiful)
When a day is said and done,
And in the middle of the night you’re fast asleep, my love…
I’m the luckiest man alive.
ITS LIKE you love me more than i love myself
And one can only hope and dream that your lucky stars will shine on me too and we will be able to count them together in time to come.
Sweetvampy:D
hehs. I do hope that they will shine on you too. When the day comes, we’ll really count the lucky stars together..as in really counting stars. Like what we’ve done before;D