I stood a step back and wondered what happened to all my promised reflections more than a month ago. The anticipatory mood of what’s in for me; challenges, fun, learning and all those imagined. I inhaled fear, excitement and a slight contentment thinking that the prestige might finally get me into something real useful for life.
Yet it seems like I was ALL wrong. The promised reflections stopped. Not that I’ve stopped thinking. I’ve been trying to squeeze out every little small thing possible to make me a much higher value person. But nothing. Taking a mundane toll of the two fingers, juggling between the buttons of “Ctrl”, “Tab”, “Alt”, “C”, “V” and the occassional clicks on the mouse doesn’t seem to do me any good.
Worst, it has to resort to what a lowly temp staff does. The usual belief that we all have to learn from LOW….is true to a certain extent but with regards to the “already-learnt -low”, i don’t know.
It feels like a good three months had been spent in vain besides the motivation towards the year-end big thing……
sighs.
